Today I happened to chat with Summer and soon found that we shared one thing in common, which is reading novels. Thanks to Mr. Mehdi’s absence (because he guided his mentees about the research paper outside), we two luckily got some more time to continue the topic—novel. During the short thirty minutes, we talked about one popular net novel series and the famed writer Guo Jingming and his work such as tiny times. The chat has inclined me to recollect how addicted was I to novels when in senior high—staying awake till two or three o’clock and grasping every spare minute to read novels couldn’t be more normal to me, really a dement girl! This chat has also rekindled my enthusiasm towards novels. Unable to resist the temptation, I downloaded four novels together with her, and we recommended some to each other. As a result, I failed to confine myself to study tonight, but read novels instead.
Now I am regretful for the lost time, to put it more clearly, I feel guilty myself. Just last week we were taught that time passed then would never return, I am supposed to cherish every minute to ensure it isn’t wasted. But what had I done? Totally contrary to the expectation. You see, human beings always behave like this; things they want are usually contradictory to what they are doing. They may have once set up their goals but cannot stick to the initial dreams, because of the inability to quit the lure, which is somewhat called deep-rooted bad habits. Can one be persistent with what he is longing for? Yes, since nothing is impossible. But it’s hard to find such person. I have to admit that I lack determination and resistance and always violate my pledge to myself. I tried to overcome the defect but failed every time. Bewildered, who can help me out of the dilemma?
Personally, having an interest is very fortunate. If not, one may easily lose hope and enthusiasm towards life. It's nicer to find a friend that share your interest, which makes your life complete. But addiction is just another matter. Lack determination? Build it up then!
ReplyDeleteI sometimes has the same feeling as yours. Maybe so does everyone. I think that it doesn't matter how much you read as long as you finish your work. Maybe you can force yourself to read a english one next time you want to read novels.
ReplyDeleteJust try to distribute your time to all those things wisely! Then you will feel better!
ReplyDeleteYou make me think of the time in my senior high school during which i also usually read novels till 2 o'clock. Some novers are called literature while most of them are called "rubbish". Now i seldom read novels. So i think if you really want to save time and quitting the rubbish novels. You can do it just let yourself free off them.
ReplyDeleteHaha~At least you have realized this point!But how to manage time is not wasting time? Different people have different criteria.As long as you have completed your work,allocating some time for leisure and relaxing is nothing wrong.But I do think those online novels are of no help to you.Maybe you can develop some other relatively healthier interests^^
ReplyDeleteIt's not easy to strike a balance between thinking and doing. If you don't think enough, there is little meaning to what you do. But you should not think too much for it will lead to anxiety which you are feeling. We should chat over tea after next Thursday. Just let me know when you feel like it.
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